3rd post - ENDLESS ANGER

I am tired of being angry and disrespectful.

I understand that grandparents or grand grandparents love and dote their grandchildren or grand grandchildren. Loving them and spoiling them is 2 different things.

"1. Do you think I would torture and beat my children to vent my anger or frustration?

2. Or hit them till their flesh spilt?"

I wanted to hit Leia with a cane today as she kicked my face twice on 2 different occasion within a day, pinched me and shouted at me.

The reason for me to hit her.

1. Is to discipline her
2. Teach her from wrong to right
3. Letting her know every choices she made comes with a consequence.
4. Let her remember that this can't be repooeat again and not repeating the same mistake.

The first time when she hit and screamed at me,  I didn't want to hit her with the canej but I let her to cry by herself to let know that crying doesn't solve anything or gain her any attention/sympathy she wants.

Louis grandmother go to her tell her "廷廷最听话" (Leia is the most obedient). When I'm trying to teach her a lesson.

1. She is asking my child to against me.
2. She is teaching my child that crying gains attention and sympathy 
3. She is disrespecting me and teaching my child to disrespect me
4. She is teaching my child that even if she did something wrong, she can cry and need not apologize.
5. She is confusing my child with my values and her wrong values.

This makes me re-think I shouldn't stay over on Friday and so my girl will spend less time over there.

"It takes a short time for them to learn or quit bad habits, it takes a long time to instill good habits and values."

What i taught is all forgotten over just a weekend.

I really wanted to say out today to his grandmother but I didn't....
"The next time if I hit them, the pain will be double. As you have thrown away my cane and therefore, I'm using a hanger."

There are still alot of things i wanted to mention but I'm really tired today.